robhouchen:

Lindsay & Alli’s last For Good recorded by the fabulous @aheartfullofbway on instagram (whom you should all follow & posted more on her account)

You can actually hear them crying and SPOILER

Lindsay does a little toss toss at the end :’)

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Anonymous asked: Do you purposely spell the word "asshole " wrong. ? Of so, why?

Do you purposely spell your questions wrong. ? If so, why?

New Poem by ME entitled “Five” -please give feedback. it’s a rough draft and it’s raw

I open my eyes and you’re nowhere to be found.
You’re gone.
I close my eyes and you’re everywhere I look.
But you aren’t here anymore,
You’ve left us all wondering,
Asking why.
Why, why wh-
I don’t know. I don’t know.
But you’re gone.
Gone for good.

I was driving home from work,
Excited because I was going to get to see you.
We had a date.
A time where we could be together,
A place, the only two people in the world that could last forever.
My phone vibrated, one, long two, three.
I knew it was you
But I ignored my impulse to read and drive
Not knowing you’re life was on the line.

Home felt like a place far away but before I knew it, I was there.
I read your text message, “I love you and I’m sorry.”
This could only mean one thing…
This scumbag cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend who thought she was gay and now pregnant with his baby.
This could only mean one thing.
I was no longer his one and only,
Just some lonely, pathetic, crazy girl.
That’s all I ever was to anyone
Before him.
Before you.
Before…us.

I picked up the phone and called,No answer.
One
I bet he’s with her right now, holding her hand,
Pretending to understand, telling her it will all be okay.
Two
I bet he deleted my phone number and doesn’t recognize it anymore.
Three
I bet he will never apologize for all the damage he has caused my heart.
Four
And I bet he won’t admit his favorite body wash is Summer’s Eve.

Five
Your mother answers, crying, asking why.
I stumble over my words.I-I don’t know why he chose her over me,
I had wished to have a baby with him someday
I guess we’ll never be together forever
I’m sorry I can’t take your pain away
But your son chose this life.
He chose to end things this way.

Oh but my dear, he hasn’t cheated.
Jay is…is…
Gone.

I open my eyes and you’re nowhere to be found.
You’re gone.
I close my eyes and you’re everywhere I look.
But you aren’t here anymore,
You’ve left us all wondering,
Asking why.
Why, why wh-
I don’t know. I don’t know.
But you’re gone.
Gone for good.

Your ashes are on a shelf next to my bed.
I don’t know how I’ll ever forgive you for leaving me here
Because you chose to put a gun to your head.
I screamedI cried
Begging God and asking him why.
How will I live this life with you?
By my side?

But for now, I lay on the cold, moist dirt covering your grave.
If only I had read that message on time,
You could have been saved.
I vow to be forever smiling, putting on a brave face,
Wearing red around my neck,
In memory of your name,
Jay.

5-18-05

There is beauty and love in the brokenness. You are loved.

Anonymous asked: Why don't you update your private tumblr evvvver?

I’m not sure when this was asked but I haven’t felt the need to update it. HOWEVER, you’ll be happy to know that I did update it last night. So tell me what you think. Hopefully it will brighten things to know I updated. Altho, the post isn’t so….bright.

Anonymous asked: How are you doing?

Quite well, actually. Even surprisingly. Well, surprisingly for me. But kind of anxious. How are you Anon?

recoveryourfitness:

not sure on a source, my cousin just put this up on facebook and man was that some opportune timing 

recoveryourfitness:

not sure on a source, my cousin just put this up on facebook and man was that some opportune timing 

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thesochillnetwork:

Russia begins the Olympic’s transition into The Hunger Games

thesochillnetwork:

Russia begins the Olympic’s transition into The Hunger Games

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TATU is performing at the Sochi opening ceremonies

lezbeginshallwe:

the moment I knew I was gay

so considering Russia’s anti-gay propaganda laws

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