REALLY EXCITED

To be an orientation leader at Marywood’s transfer orientation!!!

dunflower:

Hi friends this is a little reminder to charge your phone, take your meds, drink enough water, get enough sleep, and listen to lots of music!! Your well-being and happiness is of utmost importance and I hope you take time to take care of yourself.

(via recovery-reality-revitalize)

I’ve recently gained some new followers

so first off THANK YOU! Secondly I have a private tumblr where I very occasionally post blog entries and poems. Lmk if u want the link and password although I don’t remember it and will have to ask the BFF.

Tags: bff

"My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.

So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

"

— (via runiqu)

(via erasingthestigma)

Anonymous said: How did you come to trust him as your therapist, seeing as he's a guy?

beautyinthebellejar:

He came highly recommended lol.

I honestly didn’t like him at first. He’s so different from my last therapist, and he’s also a straight male, which was a little different for me.

But like any relationship, you build up trust. I mean, the issue pops up a lot in our interactions of whether or not I trust him completely or if I actually feel safe with him at all.

But he’s really a lifesaver because he’s like the only male i actually trust. We’ve been together for three, almost four years now, and he’s really helped me restore my faith in mankind (sorta).

It’s not easy, though. When I’m really triggered or my PTSD is bad, I just don’t even want to talk to him. And sometimes it’s embarrassing to talk about trauma stuff with him as a result of my abuser being male, but other than that, he’s a good egg.

Whenever someone said they are a good egg, I’d think of Willy Wonka when they were testing the golden eggs and if it was a bad egg it’d drop down. I’m proud to say now that I fully understand the reference as it was meant To be and not from the movie! Lol

How all of my diary cards look:

beautyinthebellejar:

ilmao!

Tags: DBT

imaginethebutts:

me in math class

image

(Source: earthdad, via recovery-reality-revitalize)

jaimejustelaphoto:

cat’s eye

How I would describe my life as a socially anxious introvert:

beautyinthebellejar: